I weep because the first time i seen you i wasn't able to hold you.

I weep because they took you away and i only seen your Little body and head of pretty hair.

I weep because there was nothing i could do.

I weep and ask why?

I weep because i never got to look into those bitty eyes.

I weep because i never got to hear that first sound of life that cry.

I weep at the thought i will never hear your little baby coo or see your pretty little toothless smile.

I weep for you.

I weep for your mom.

I weep knowing your no longer here.

I weep and the reality i can hardly bear.

I love you Sunshine Joy you will always be in Aunties heart !

Shall i dwell? !

Many dwell in the past and think of what would've,could've,should've happened.

This way of thinking stunts growth and keeps us from exploring or excepting what we have now in front of us. Everyday is a NEW day a NEW possibility. We are able to make changes to what we want if we really want to. Key word "IF". we are the makers of our lives and how we choose to live it and be remembered. One thing in life we can be guarenteed and that is CHANGE.

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I have held back from many good things in my life and equally bad things as well.

I feel punished at times for doing so..not having a pity party here..just opening my mind.

The bad choices i refuse to make in considering what the long-term outcome would be and having the will power to do so was never easy. Yet thats not taken into consideration instead i am considered "lucky" because certain races decided to take an interest in my life thats why i have what i have today. Yes, these pple influenced me to do good they

couldnt make to be anything else than what i wanted or who i wanted to be. The choices i made were my own.

The good was all around me and at one time "perfect". In hindsight i was to worried about other peoples feeling and how my selfish desires would affect them rather than just living in the moment my mind was 10 steps away.