I feel punished at times for doing so..not having a pity party here..just opening my mind.
The bad choices i refuse to make in considering what the long-term outcome would be and having the will power to do so was never easy. Yet thats not taken into consideration instead i am considered "lucky" because certain races decided to take an interest in my life thats why i have what i have today. Yes, these pple influenced me to do good they
couldnt make to be anything else than what i wanted or who i wanted to be. The choices i made were my own.
The good was all around me and at one time "perfect". In hindsight i was to worried about other peoples feeling and how my selfish desires would affect them rather than just living in the moment my mind was 10 steps away.